by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner
I continue to plow my way towards finishing the second draft of my first novel and as such I continue to dwell on why literary types don’t want to work with me — even if I’m willing to pay them. I suppose this fact goes hard against my self-perception and makes me question if they see something about me that I don’t.
You would think that being in the liberal arts that literary types would find me particular brand of colorful personality endearing and interesting. But, as it is, I may come across as overbearing and maybe a little bit creepy? And, yet, I honestly struggle to see how that is the case.
I have done everything in my power to come across as “normal” as possible but I am shocked at how quickly literary types have been dismissive or even snooty towards me when I ask them for help.
I suppose should I ever become any sort of success that, by definition, the very elements of my personality that they find so “distasteful” will be seen as intriguing and interesting. But I have to become successful first for that to happen and for that to happen…I need the assistance of the people who think I’m a creepy weirdo. Or, at least, their help would definitely speed the process up.
But all is not lost. This novel project is improving a great deal. I just have to believe in myself. Wish me luck.
