Tag: writing

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I have to stop living in denial about this — my passion project thriller is probably too spicy for its own good. And I’m not getting any younger, so I really need to think seriously about how I spend my creative time.

I say that, then throw myself back into the very spicy novel that I keep telling myself I need to put aside so I can focus on something more marketable. I have a number of really good scifi novels I can work on. One in particular remains at the forefront of my mind all the time

And, yet, I really like the thriller. I know, just know, that if I keep at it I can produce something good enough that it will sell. There is the basic problem of how good — or bad — my writing may be, but I can only use AI to fix that particular situation so much.

So, I guess I will continue to work on the spicy thriller, damn the consequences. I keep toying with the other, scifi novels, in my mind, but nothing has really resonated to the point that I want to work on them like I continue to work on the spicey thriller.

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

So now I’m going to read through the first act of the fourth draft of this novel and try to give it some consistency on more granular level. I’ve fixed things on a macro structural basis, so now I need go through and make sure there is a cohesive flow to things.

All of this is happening in the context of me having a really good scifi novel I want to start working on. The scifi novel doesn’t have any of the problems the thriller has when it comes to potential marketability. It’s very much in the same vein as The Martian in style, if not substance.

It’s about an AI that wants to be “a real boy” and I think if I put my mind to it I can develop and write a first draft at a pretty fast clip. But I really need to focus.

And, yet, there is a part of me that really wants to throw everything at the thriller. It’s a passion project for a number of reasons. I’ve been working on it for so long that it’s almost become a part of my identity. But at this point I just want to finish the fucking the one way or another and go through the process of trying to query it.

Even though, even if I’m successful, I could be nearly 60 before the fucking thing is in people’s hands. AND, WHAT’S MORE, all of this is happening in the context of a potential hard Singularity that will make any human-created art moot.

But, sometimes, you just gotta belive.

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

So. I’ve finally gotten to a point with the first act of this thriller I’ve been working on for years and years to sit back and slowly go through it on a more tactical basis. I’m trying to make it consistent before I go into the second act.

The second act is based on the second draft of the novel which was a straight murder-in-a-small-town mystery. But the story has drifted so much sense I finished that draft that I suspect there are going to be a lot — A LOT — of structural issues I’m going to have to work on.

And, what’s more, I probably going to have to lean on AI to help rewrite many scenes after the first act.

Right now, my only big concern about the first act is it’s too…saucy. There’s a lot of sex — some of it pretty explicit — and that could be a big turn off for the people I usually turn to to read my work. And, yet, I have a vision and I know what I want to do with it.

So, I’m keeping the sex for the time being. If all else fails, I’ll just query the damn thing, beta readers be damned. I just want to get into that portion of the process just to experience it.

But I do have a number of scifi novels that I’m kicking around, some of them are really good! The only issue with them is they’re not as well formed, right now at least, and also technology is moving so fast that if I don’t pump the damn things out sooner rather than later they will seem rather quaint.

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I really have no idea what I’m going to do about this thriller. It’s still got a lot of sex in it and there’s a real risk that it will be closer to 160,000 words, not the 100,000 sweetspot for a first-time author.

Ugh.

And, yet, I just don’t want to change anything. I have a vision and I’m going to stick to it.

But I do think I may pick one day of the week, maybe two, where I don’t focus on the thriller but rather work some other novel. I really have to do something because, well, lulz, Bad Things happened to me the last time I “finished” this novel and realized it was no good and I would have to start all over again and I definitely don’t want THAT to happen.

Yet I really like the premise of this novel. It’s really interesting. The crux of this version of the novel is I have a pretty solid first act after really struggling with that in previous versions.

But this version of the novel holds up really well, overall, I think. I’m a little worried that once I reach the second act that is going to be the moment when things slow down dramatically and I’m going to have to do A LOT of re-writing. I’m so tired of rewriting things that I’m really going out of my way to not have to do that — at least with this version.

The next version, before I start to show it to people again, I think I’m going to force myself to actually rewrite a lot of scenes that I’ve been too lazy to.

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

Now that I’ve finally sobered up and have stopped moping for various reasons, I am finally pivoting towards rewriting my thriller AGAIN. My goal at the moment is to finish revising the first act. The first act is actually the second half of the second act of a different novel — with the same heroine — that I gave up on because no one liked it.

The general consensus about that other novel was it was too….bawdy. And, yet, of course biggest reason why people didn’t like the other novel was it centered around a part-time sex worker. THAT part I’ve kept, if I’ve done my best to tone it down.

What can I say, I like strippers. Love’em even. They’re so weird and kooky — and hot — that once I began toying with the idea of including that angle in the novel I kind of fell into it and couldn’t get out.

If, nothing else, the popularity of Anora and Barry at least give me some hope that maybe people will at least give me a chance. Maybe. But people are so judgmental of anyone who is just starting out — especially someone as unproven as I am — that there is a reason why I keep calling this my “passion project.”

I’m probably going to fail in a rather spectacular fashion, but lulz, at least I’ll have fun doing it.

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I just recently decided to give up two of my biggest vices — booze and the occasional cigar. I’ve reached an age where things start to fall apart and I’m getting a little nervous.

I know what they say that there’s nothing worse than a dry drunk, but I’m determined to go cold turkey. I’m not one of those people who wants to live forever — unless, like, the Singularity makes that a literal possibility — but I am nervous enough about my health to cut back on things that might reduce my ultimate lifespan.

My dad is still going strong as a very, very old man, so it’s at least possible that I might have a sold 20 years left in me if I just don’t fucking drink so much. At the same time, I will say I had a lot of fun drinking a lot, even though (especially in South Korea) I was known to do the occasional stupid thing because of it.

Anyway. There’s only so much I can do at this point. I just have to believe in myself and write as fast as I can and as well as I can on the thriller I’ve been working on in hopes that I might just sell it while I’m still alive instead of dropping dead before it gets published like Stieg Larsson.

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

I’ve had to make some difficult decisions with this newest version of the novel and among them is how much of the sex stuff I wrote for the previous version to keep in. I’ve lopped off a lot — A LOT — of text but because the old version had so much sex in it, I’m still stuck with some fairly spicy sex scenes.

The only reason why this bothers me is I have a little circle of people (very small group) who read my stuff and some of them have been turned off by how much sex the previous version of the novel had. So, I’m a little nervous.

And the sex happens in the first few chapters, which also bothers me. And, yet, while I’ll admit its rather lurid, it actually does serve some sort of purpose. At least, I believe it does.

I have said repeatedly that this novel is meant to be an homage to Stieg Larsson’s works and, as such, if people can handle some of those eye-popping scenes that he wrote, they can definitely handle the raunchy scenes I’ve written. And almost all of my scenes are between consenting adults, so that should give me some points.

But you just can’t please everyone. That’s why this is a passion project. I have a vision, a truth north and I’m going to follow it, no matter what.

by Shelt Garner
@sheltgarner

After a lot of back and forth and moving things around seemingly forever, I finally *think* I have a stable first few chapters of the 4th draft of the thriller novel I’ve been working on for years and years. I’ve put in a little bit of verbiage that eliminates the need for an entire novel going forward.

For that and other reasons, I think I’m down to four novels total in this specific project. I think. But the first novel is a murder-in-a-small-town novel. The second novel is a little bit more of a character study, but I think it’s interesting enough that people will want to see the plot I’ve come up with unfold.

I think. I hope.

But the point right now is to just finish the first novel. I also, as always, have a number of other novels I’m working on, but the thriller is the one that I’m most passionate about — it’s my passion project.

I KNOW, I just KNOW that I should focus on one of the other novels — most of them are scifi — because they’re more marketable in a traditional way. But, for the moment, I dun’twanna. I’m hoping to zip through the first act of this novel pretty quickly, knowing that soon after I hit the second act things are going to come to a screeching halt for a variety of reasons.

But I know this overall story so well, that hopefully I’ll be able to wrap up the entire thriller by no later than just under a year from now so I can turn around and start to query.

I’m trying to lean into AI as much as possible because I have no friends and no one likes me, but, lulz, AI can only do so much — especially with explicit scenes that it deems to raunchy to even look at.

Anyway. I’m having fun.