The Thing About It is lyrics by @sheltgarner please give credit if you produce or perform
people come and go some will even give you some blow but you need to find someone someone you love who you can keep close when you have self doubt about what it’s all about
the thing about it is I just don’t know my next step will I regret where I place my foot or am I overthinking it
you may need hear the truth something you’re not ready to think but if you don’t do it sooner rather than later, later, later it will bite you in ass with all it’s sass so what can I say, but
the thing about it is I just don’t know my next step will I regret where I place my foot or am I overthinking it
(bridge) I know what I know sometimes things just blow but hear me out without a doubt I will be ready for the next bout
the thing about it is I just don’t know my next step will I regret where I place my foot or am I overthinking it
A Long Time Ago lyrics by @sheltgarner please give credit if you produce or perform
it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore.
I can’t help but think think about what could have been if I had take the right advice believed in myself a little bit instead of wading into the shit but here I am head in hand thinking of it all
it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore.
people look at me and smirk telling me that I look like dirt weep all you like they think but you’re a freak to believe anyone at all cares about those lost songs people tell me to cheer up and grin but all I do is wade in my past sin
it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore.
(bridge) thinking of the present moving forward is the only way I know the best is yet to come and that to think otherwise is dumb but here I am with myself reaizing nothing will change despite the change in age
it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore. it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore it was a long time ago and no one cares anymore.
I don’t have any problem with manuscript consultants, but their belief that I’m a drunk crank that they won’t work with definitely generates a lot of angst for me. It causes me to reflect on how people who don’t know me perceive me. But it’s one of those things that I just can’t do anything about.
So, here I am chomping at the bit to start the third draft of my first novel and I have five more novels I want to work on, but I’m worried that snooty manuscript consultants will laugh at me if I offer to pay them to help me figure out how to write the novels.
All of this is really weird to me because you would think that manuscript consultants would be amenable to people who are “different” who want to write a novel. But it definitely seems this is not the case. Once they look at my Twitter account they ghost me — they think I’m too big a kook to work with.
Anyway, I’m going to keep chugging along. I really want to start writing the Third Draft of the first novel in this series, but I also really want to start development on the other five novels in this project.
Perfect lyrics by @sheltgarner please give credit if you produce or perform
the oceans rise and empires fall but I know I’ll never get a taste of that perfect love you have you can spread your legs all you like but in the end you’ll laugh and tell me to scram cause you’re perfect
perfect is what you are strange as can be what I see before me you’re perfect perfect perfect perfect
your baby is wealthy and sane two things that only make me complain I’m just not up to snuff enough to see you in the buff but dat ass has a lot of class too bad it’s wasted on an lover who no longer cares
perfect is what you are strange as can be what I see before me you’re perfect perfect perfect perfect
I’m just a broke ass mutherfucker can never provide for you or your clan but I promise to love you love you better than any other you’re weird in a way that brings lust and confusion to the land.
perfect is what you are strange as can be what I see before me you’re perfect perfect perfect perfect
(bridge) keep it to yourself such thoughts will bring fire and much chaos if you don’t keep your lust to yourself then God only knows what may break out
perfect is what you are strange as can be what I see before me you’re perfect perfect perfect perfect
Conation lyrics by @sheltgarner please give credit if you produce or perform
verse 1 everything is of my own volition I can do as I please you want to control me pin me down to your will but I’m not slurping that swill
pre-chorus I’m not doing as you say not under your control no not one bit I have free will
chorus the nation I live in has self-determination conation is the only way to be able to exert your agency conation is the only way to be
verse 2 my right is not your wrong I have the right to choose and always will don’t tell me what to do I won’t listen no matter what
pre-chorus I’m not doing as you say not under your control no not one bit I have free will
chorus the nation I live in has self-determination conation is the only way to be able to exert your agency conation is the only way to be
post-chorus conation is my state conation is my state
bridge without conation there is nothing I have agency and always will it’s my choice want happens next I have conation I have conation I have conation
chorus the nation I live in has self-determination conation is the only way to be able to exert your agency conation is the only way to be I have conation I have conation I have conation
Vortex lyrics by @sheltgarner please give credit if you produce or perform
in the middle of the storm that is life I’ll be there with you till the end the calm of the eye will be so bold as to scold but when the end comes again I’ll hold you tight so there will be no fright I love you as much as I can even in the
vortex the vortex of life is sight to see the vortex is strong as can be vortex vortex vortex vortex
but I’m not willing to flee the winds of the vortex are not so strong that I will run from you I’ll keep you safe as can be whatever comes to you comes for me don’t worry one bit not matter how much the vortex scares us and shit
vortex the vortex of life is sight to see the vortex is strong as can be vortex vortex vortex vortex
(bridge) the peace will come we will reside in the sun maybe start a family one that will enjoy a new life one without fear of destruction and the vortex is just the past thought of as just a gas
vortex the vortex of life is sight to see the vortex is strong as can be vortex vortex vortex vortex
I’ve used this title before to write lyrics, but I find it an interesting and useful turn of phrase, so here’s another try.
New Model Army lyrics by @sheltgarner please give credit if you produce or perform
you left me alone to fend for myself without even a belt to wear or a explosive vest but I’m back and ready to fight with an army that knows how to bite
I have a new model army one of my own devices new model army new model army new model army one you can’t defeat as long as I’m on my feet
it’s no small feat I must admit to assemble this cast I’m ready to go out with a blast your walls of fate are ready to fall just like Constantinople before it wailed
I have a new model army one of my own devices new model army new model army new model army one you can’t defeat as long as I’m on my feet
(bridge) I’ll lay down my arms and embrace you with them if you give me the truth for once before it’s too late but I know you too well that’s not going to sail so it’s the new model army back on the attack
I have a new model army one of my own devices new model army new model army new model army one you can’t defeat as long as I’m on my feet
Because of Beta Reader issues and my need to read for the purposes of research, if nothing else, I’ve pretty much decided to pause writing on my first novel until around Sept 1st. This is extremely hard for me to do because I know, in general, that in real terms it’s unlikely beta readers are going to give me the type of input I really need.
There may be a few who give me cogent, constructive criticism, but in general, either they’re going to ghost me or they’re going to give me something between “it sucks” and “it’s great.” And that will be that.
And, yet, there is a very specific thing I want to research that is requiring me to read a tom. There is a very specific new element to my heroine’s personality that I want to be well read on to the point that I can use that particular personality trait to great effect.
I feel very focused on this particular issue because I know that, done right, it will make my heroine a lot more accessible and also a lot more likeable to the reading public. This specific issue is a quirk of her persona that will both draw readers in and also be a hook for marketing purposes going forward.
At least, that’s the vision.
Anyway, I constaly have my own mortality on my brain these days. I have come up with six novels, but I’m so fucking old I may simply drop dead long before I can actually get anywhere near writing them.
And, yet, I like the sense of hope that the prospect of six novels brings with it. I’m not dead YET and, who knows, maybe somehow, someway, I might pull off this third hat trick.
I would like to note that I’m aware that a man saying “female” gives some women the “ick.” But, like the headline above, sometimes you have to say female because “woman” just sounds weird and awkward.
The heroine of my first novel looks kind of like this in my mind.
Anyway, I write about this all the time because it really bothers me. A lot of squeaky wheels in my prospective audience get really worked up about how bad male authors are at attempting to write from a female POV. As such, I really get kind of nervous whenever I write something about the female experience that I can only extraplate or reverse engineer from a male perspective.
I had no idea this was even an issue when I started working on this six novel project. But now, I think about it all the time. There is, in real terms, little I can do about it. Either you accept that a man can write from a female POV, or you don’t.
All I can do is just write my vision for the novel out and see what happens. I’m feeling pretty good at this point about my ability to write female characters (really, some people want me to say “woman characters?” that is so awkward to write.)
Or maybe this?
Anyway, I’m getting really excited about writing the third draft of my first novel. And I’m also really thinking hard about the other six novels in the project. My only fear, at this point is, of course, that I’m being really, really ambitious and I’m going to drop dead before I come anywhere near finishing all six novels.
But I definitely have the overall, macro arc of the six novels well thought out in my mind. It deals with events over the course of a generation and has an open ended conclusion that would setup a whole new series of books with a Lisbeth Salander-type heroine.
At least, that’s the vision. I’m 50, I could very well just die of a heart attack and that will be that. But wish me luck, I guess?
It used to be that culture could change a lot just within the course of one decade. As late as the 1980s, early 80s was very different than mid or late 80s. And, yet, it definitely seems as though since 2001, cultural shifts haven’t happened as rapidly.
I’m old enough that if I look back over the last 20 years, I struggle to see how there has been any sort of major vibe shift. Yes, there have been blips of change here and there since 2001, but, in general any cultural changes have been rather subtle.
At some point over the last 20 years, something changed.
Could it have been the advent of social media because of the smartphone? Is that what caused everything to change? It’s all very curious. Or is it possible that we’re really, really overdue for a severe vibe shift.
And as such, maybe 2024 really is it?
Could it be that because of both the Petite Singularity and The Fourth Turning may happen at the same time in late 2024, early 2025 that, unto itself, could be the Vibe Shift that we’ve all been expecting. Maybe?
But it is very curious. Someone should write a 10,000 word New Yorker piece about this shit.
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